The battle was hard enough but it was the aftermath that was the worst. The blood everywhere, friends and foes dead, dying and wounded and all I could think about was my overpowering urge.
My own Brother taken from me. As my family mourned I walked away, ashamed and horrified that even the love and loss of a sibling did nothing to stifle my lust even for a short while.
It felt urgent. I knew I could control myself outwardly but there was only one thing on my mind.
There was so much to do before we could return home, so much magical chaos to be calmed. We had to get the Dementors back to Azkaban before we could send any Death Eaters there. We had to make arrangements to send all the dead home and the wounded to St Mungo’s. There was so much damage to Hogwarts to be repaired, magical creatures to round up, spells and enchantments the death eaters had left that needed to be lifted.
It was hard work even with magic, some of us where there for months. My urges got stronger at times but I fought them, I knew that was the difference between me and him I wouldn’t give in to these feelings, I would never have forgiven myself. Some of the house elves returned to help and I managed to convince some of them to slake my longing from time to time, though they did not fully understand and I don’t think the were pleased to be doing it.
I stayed till everything was done, the insanity was over, withing Hogwarts at least. The students were due to return the next day to be led by their new Headmistress Professor McGonagall so the last of us prepared ourselves and said our final goodbyes to Hogwarts. It was a relief to be going home after holding back so long.
I arrived at Shell Cottage a wreck, I didn’t feel worthy of her or anyone else’s love, The thoughts that had gone through my mind, the desires. It was wrong, sick. Fleur understood, she told me that she had known it would be hard having death all around me and not sampling it but she was proud that I had controlled myself so well. She left me to sit for a while watching the sea and when she came to fetch me the sky was almost black. She led me into the dining room where there was a large deer freshly killed, cut open and ready for me to feast. It was magnificent, the freshness of it slaked my lust for flesh and blood like the raw steaks at Hogwarts never could have. When I had feasted I was able to sit with Fleur and hold her knowing that until the next full moon she would truly be the only thing on my mind.
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